Holy Cow...

Quackers the Duck

This is Bets-he. No. Not Betsy. It WAS Betsy until I realized Betsy is a HE. Therefore, He is now Bets-He.

Bets-he here has a problem. A very obvious problem. He can try to act like nothing is wrong. He can talk like nothing is different. He can even wander around and hope that no other cow notices the awkward ladder clinging to his neck and leg.

Oh, you didn't notice it? Just take a closer look. Hard to miss. Don't tell him that though. He gets grumpy when you let him know that something is really wrong. He takes it "Personal" and gets really "Defensive". He doesn't even realize that people can't get close to him even if they wanted too. He wards them off with the awkward ladder swinging at everyone in the near vacinity.

There is nothing Bets-He can do to help himself. And for that matter, there is nothing Bets-He's friends can even do. They don't have the skill, capacity, capabilities, or posable thumbs to be able to take this ladder off of him. Someone much greater then the average cow needs to help out here. I think a farmer is needed in a very bad and undeniable way.

I am like this cow. No, not in the mean "You look like a Cow" sense. I have attitude problems. I need a few adjustments .... okay, I need a big overhaul sometimes and I need to be rescued from myself . There. I said it. My husband should be rejoicing that I admitted I have an attitude problem. haha

Seriously though: I was having a tough time this week with a personal issue. My personal issue involved other people that I didn't feel were treating me right. Actually, I know they weren't and aren't treating me right. But it was affecting everything I did. It affected how I treated my husband, how I spoke to my girls, how I felt about myself, what I did or didn't do. Ugh. I affected me. I admit it.

Steve, my husband, sort of "confronted" me about my problem and I pretty much (in a very nice and annoyed way) told him he was nuts. "I am fine. There is nothing wrong. Leave me alone. Back off. Mind your own business...." You get the gist of it. I was grumpy and it was obvious.

I was like this cow with a ladder around my neck. It was evident to everyone around me - I had a problem. It didn't matter how much I tried to ignore it, deny it, cover it up or just flat out pretend it wasn't there --- it WAS there. I needed to deal with it but I couldn't deal with it. I needed someone bigger then me. I needed someone who could do what I couldn't do. I couldn't pretend anymore to be holy and have it all together. It wasn't working and honestly, it was just making me look stupid.

I just needed God.

Sometimes we just need God. We need to give up trying to fix things ourselves and just let God get involved. I tried to fix it, I tried to make it go away, I tried to act like "they" don't bother me. But "they" do. So... I need Him. My focus should be on God anyways. I needed my clarity back.

As soon as I refocused myself on God things changed. No, God didn't strike "them" down by lightening, they aren't in a season of obvious famine because of sin, they didn't see the error of their ways.... "They" didn't change. I did.

Let God change you. Don't act like things don't affect you and bother you. Don't try to fix it yourself. You can't, but He can. Let HIM do it. He's so much better at being God then we are.

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him! Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints! There is no want to those who fear Him. The young lions lack and suffer hunger; but those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing." Psalm 34:8-10